To Heal or Not to Heal
We all stand our place in life looking to light and looking to darkness, often suggesting indecisiveness, what do I do? The fear with injury and disease is just as this, we may fear that the injury of sickness will force us into unemployment of worse…abandonment.
I was just recently released from the hospital, the third time since November last year. These illnesses were valid, nothing consciously induced, no desire for pain yet resulted in the loss of employment. This struck deep because it added to the irrational belief that I was a failure. My God where did that come from?
I am not sure where it came from, only a firm conviction of where it is going, and that is reintegrated with me knowing that the part of me that fears is trying to help me, not realizing the destruction it causes. So I let that part of me know that I love it, and welcome it to a life of beauty, success, unconditional love.
I just finished reading a dynamic book by PhD. Caroline Myss, “Why People Don’t Heal and How They Can” and in her book she describes how some people do not want to heal. Some people would rather still in their illness because then they would continue to receive the attention they so desperately seek. This can include the repetitious occurrence of illness or injury. I think for me it has been the fear of abandonment, and once I succeed in something it will only be taken away…so a fear of success. Yet the part of my being that sets this up could honestly believe that it is protecting me from harm by doing this. Meaning it does not desire to cause harm to me, yet it sets up a sequence of events that allows my injury, no matter how weird it appeared in me, to keep me from being hurt further in something else.
I let that part of me know that I am no longer afraid, I am willing to face all things because I shall not fail. My power exists by what Spirit had given me, and I welcome with love those parts of me that are are afraid, it is time to not fear.
“To know God is the most important way to heal all disease-physical, mental, spiritual. As darkness cannot remain where light is, so also the darkness of disease is driven away by the Light of God’s perfect presence when it enters the body.”
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